I wonder what control ones emotion? Sometimes I experienced emotional swing- a moment I was happy and suddenly the next moment I was sad. Odd isn’t it?

I hate to say that I can lose my temper easily! And I can easily cry too. And sometimes overwhelmed with joy that I just wanted to sing silly songs, dance and even shivering from excitement.

Mum always talks to me about controlling my emotions. But it is really hard not to cry when I’m sad or not to lose my temper when I’m angry. Emotional? I’m not proud of being emotional. Infact I do not want to be emotional, for as a Muslim I should learn to control my emotion. I hate to be rude to my parents or worse, shouting at them. We tends to say things that we don’t even mean to when we are angry. And one may even throw things around if they do not learn to control themselves. Ugly isn’t it?

Balancing my feelings is hard – how can I cool down when I’m too excited? But mum is right; I have to learn to control my emotions. And honestly I’m trying hard to do so; but more often than I should I forget about it when overwhelmed by emotion. Just like minding my manners; it is really, really hard!

Manners, Manners, MANNERS!!!

My mother was complaining about my manners just now. She said that I should mind my manners. Manners manners manners… really, there are so much that needed to be remembered. How to eat properly, how to walk properly, how to talk properly and so much more. To make it worse, they are so hard to be mastered.

My mother said that manners are very important because they show one’s dignity. Well, when I go to expensive restaurants, every clatter I made would make people stare at me……. Insya Allah, I hope the day will come when good manners would come naturally in anything I do. I would not like to grow up to be an intellectual but without good manners.